I’ve been feeling pretty disconnected the past few days. Maybe its just been the hours. Maybe my sleep apnea is getting worse. Maybe I’m just drinking too much coffee and eating shitty. But I haven’t been feeling particularly present. Its not that I’m depressed(I’m not) I’m pretty happy with the way most things are going. I really want to put together a project that I can throw myself into, but when I finally get a day to myself I can’t seem to find the energy to start.
Starting always seems to be the hardest thing.
Sometimes I have to really push myself to get out of the house and go for a run, but once I’m out and have the road under my feet its almost effortless compared to getting out the door. And I always have to get back home, so I can’t just stop, I need to see it through until the end.
Maybe its the same for these projects. Maybe I just need to start them and eventually I’ll make it back home.